How could you ever love a dirty man? This garbage came and stained my hands. I'm filthy, that's the sad fucking truth I'm no good for you. I hope you're not embarrassed of my faults, The failures that I engulfed, Indulged but I was starving for you Split this bottle in two. How'd you find a lifeline As long as the eastern coast? I'll let you down eventually But thanks for keeping me afloat. Every day I missed you, Every night I waited for, Every night I stayed awake, Hoping you'd say, "I love you more." How could you consider me as family? I abandoned every single need. It's hard to give what I never had And receive what I lack. I fucked up first but I'll never admit, All this pain and this hurt and I still can't feel shit. Cause when I got myself termed my feelings went with Along with pride and an urn to put myself in. I want to burn the shoes that touched the ground when I ran away. It's not their fault but god damn fuck; I can't help but blame them. I miss our walks and all the talks after 11 hour shifts. Cause that was the first time I felt like I belonged. Every day I miss you, Every night I'm waiting for Every night I stay awake, Hoping you'll say I need you more. Every day I missed you, Every night I waited for Every night I stayed awake, Hoping you'd say to come back home.