For so long
I saw myself so badly
Stupid and lazy
Sad and crazy
Fat and gross
I stayed in my little room
Singin' my ugly tunes
Tracing the lines hidden underneath my sleeves
Hashtag cuts
A forest of dead trees
But then
I found
A secret:
There's a girl in saint-marie
Just like me
Just like me
She likes all the same toys as me
Makes all the same noise as me
And she noticed me
From across the sea
A girl in saint-marie
Just like me
Just like me
She is chunky
And she is beautiful
Beautiful
Beautiful
Her teeth stick out
She's got a sad little pout
And she is beautiful
Beautiful
Beautiful
She says her palms sweat too much
And some day i will touch them
I'll kiss her wrist
Just like this
A girl in saint-marie
Just like me
She says there is joy inside me
And i just have to trust where my heart goes
She says there is light inside me
But sometimes all i see are the shadows
She says there's a star inside me
Burning up my soul everyday
She says there is god inside me
And god is everything
Darkness and light
All the same, all the same
How i tremble when she types out my name
Oh you fool
You fool
It's all within yourself
Oh you fool
You fool
It's all within myself
How lucky for me
A girl across the sea
Who speaks to me
In whispering emoji
And i found her
And she found me
In the lonely ugly chaos
Of the internet
This ugly thing
Lets me sing
So beautiful
Beautiful
Beautiful
Yes i am
Beautiful
Beautiful
Beautiful
Beautiful
Beautiful too