Stop Stop And I don't wanna die if I wake up So I ain't slept for the longest time And I don't wanna wait till I grow up Yeah I just wanna live I can't read each sign Inside its difficult to show up But it seems fine watching from the outside I'm thinking to myself why I show love I'm asking myself why I act so kind Now there's intrusive thoughts down the boulevard Right until it crashes inside my mind So I'm smoking cigarettes in the bathroom Thinking of the times where I almost died Chasing it down dreams of Hollywood I'm asking myself can I chase this high I'll only see in the next life My only excuse is that I still try I see things they'll never see Spread my wings and set me free Fallen angels let me be I know your the same as me It's so difficult I leave It's so difficult to breathe If I say you won't believe All I wanted was some peace Fall asleep but I still dream about it Dream about it Gone for the week but I still think about it Think about it Contemplate what I'm gonna do next Wake up late Send a triple text Trying to live but I can't live without it Live without it Now there's intrusive thoughts down the boulevard Right until it crashes inside my mind So I'm smoking cigarettes in the bathroom Thinking of the times where I almost died Chasing it down dreams of Hollywood Asking myself can I chase this high I'll only see in the next life My only excuse is that I still try Now there's intrusive thoughts down the boulevard Right until it crashes inside my mind So I'm smoking cigarettes in the bathroom Thinking of the times where I almost died Chasing it down dreams of Hollywood Asking myself can I chase this high I'll only see in the next life My only excuse is that I still try