These demons in my life
Planting seeds up in my mind
Grew the weeds filled with lies and trees built with vines
They dangle and strangle my adam's apple
So i cant breathe till im high
Jeez im alive
Its like a motherfucking war between me myself and i
How it seemed ill in my eyes
To put chills up in your spine
Pardon my speaking
This aint your garden of eden
This is real life
Anguish and harder on people
This aint some lame problem
Like little kids bullyin'
Im talking 'bout family members turned into zombies from heroin???
Being stuck in their fucking skin without a stair open
But hey we're all american
Shit
There's no well preservation 'cept self-medication to help devastation
Every day's great
We haven't seen the sun in years that's why we're playing Russian roulette with a gun in our hair
Yeah
Make the pain go away
Oh no no
All these demons inside my head
(I just) can't make the pain go away
They say that i better run now, babe
Going through this life
Never seem like nothing changed
Memories fill my mind
I wish i could turn off my brain
Labelled as a genius also certified insane
Suicide my only option to end this pain
My mind it fucks with me
Myself i wanna kill
Born a schizophrenic I don't even know what's real
Crying as i write this verse
Lord, tell me what's the deal?
How could you do this to me why is this the way I feel?
Demons fill my head
Fight 'em each and every day
Nobody understands me no matter what i say
When somebody try to help I just push 'em away
Years cocaine to try to end the awful death I pray
This deep depression I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy
Friends and family, I wish they'd let me be
Know there's a silver lining
But goddamnit I can't see
Should I end my life, the only way I'll be free?
Make the pain go away
Oh no no
All these demons inside my head
(I just) can't make the pain go away
They say that i better run now, babe
This letter reads to who makes the sun
Hardships of life the lesson you've lived and learn
I've tried my best to survive
I try my best to earn
But every step forward's followed by three in reverse
Laid off the money
Which brought on a life of crime
I thought you had a wife, Lee, kids never stop by
I act like things're fine
But really hurts inside
Dying to escape those drugs to get by
But shit took control
Janet Jackson
Couldn't bounce back like a boy's flat end
I can't remember the last time I felt happiness
Crying out, not even fam listening
World turned its back
Window backspin
Lord forgive my sins
For what's about to happen
As I kick the chair
Hang from the end of the rope
Just know
This is how to end a suicide note
Make the pain go away
Oh no no
All these demons inside my head
(I just) can't make the pain go away
They say that i better run now, babe
And as I walk through the valley
I won't fear no man
For thou art with me