I caught a feeling the other day
It was so hard to explain
Gotta take this medication
Anything to ignore my pain
But it's still creeping up in my brain
I tend to hide in a video game (ooh)
What you do when you got no one to talk to?
Feels like depression is my best friend
Dealin' with the same shit, ain't nothing new
When will I learn my lesson?
Wake up stressed out and eat my food
I'm full but I'm still empty
What you do when you got no one to talk to?
I was sitting low watching the sky
In the distance I can hear an echo
I look off in the distance rub my eyes
I saw a man I've never seen before
And he asked me why I'm so afraid to die
I told him "my dude, I really don't know
I guess I feel I haven't lived my life
And there's so much trauma I haven't let go"
Hey, wait, stay
I feel a part of me slip away
And that was the part that I need today
So this is the part where I show my face, uh
Face to face
With all the problems I'm tryna shake
Spinnin' out and I hit the brakes
But I still crash and I guess that's fate
I chose to live this way
If I fuck up then it's all my fault
You're too loud, don't wanna hear your thoughts
I'm not here to sit and be taught
Cause you're not that great
But always act like you know the way
Backtrack everything you say
It's my world at the end of day
I won't change my ways for the next man, you gon' have to kill me bro
Everything get me tight like a headband, weighing heavy on my soul
Flip this shit upside down like a headstand,
Shit ain't even up no more
Picture me '97 E30, big bands, I don't wanna talk no more
Need it stat
I be runnin' up the stats, that's a fact
Just still tryna keep that shit in tact and it's sad
They be tryna tell me to relax and it's whack
Once I'm old I can't get the youth back, that's facts
I be fucked up
I can't smoke weed
Cause I'm a fuck up
It's gon' make me think
It's gon' make me think
It's gon' make me think
It's gon' make me think
And I don't like to think