Dead eyes and dirty dishes Punishing myself with cruel thoughts Unlearned to cry, forgotten wishes Trembling through life Pretending to be someone I'm not And I'm masking, I'm asking Are you, are you disappointed? Cause I lose, I lose you and broke my promise And I'm mad at parents with babies cause they bring them Into a world no one wants to live in And I hide and you hunt and you protect me You carry me home and you respect me Even when I scream at you "You're ugly" Are you, are you disappointed? Cause I lose, I lose you and broke my promise And I can't open my eyes Cause the sun shines too bright When you haven't slept all night Forget it, never mind Tell me pretty lies to keep me alive And I can't open my eyes Cause the sun shines too bright When you haven't slept all night I can't open my mouth Cause I can't change things anyway And you are ashamed of everything I say My visions are blurred I can't see the way home But follow me I don't want to be lost alone