Smiling with my eyes closed Makes me believe I'm actually happy As long as I see your reaction While my thoughts retract back into me If for a moment you see who I really am Then everything I've fought for Fidelity lost by my own Hand-in-hand with whatever thoughts I let ruin relationships before they start I guess my own head rules my heart Almost every day now I'm missing something important And every single day I Worry about my mind and how I'm losing it You look at me and tell me I'm completely fine That all these dissolutions are just a waste of time The difference between this man and the boy you knew Is the promises you make me I know now are true Maybe I might mean something to you I choked and I know Lied to myself and sank the boat And your perfume is like a rope Wrap it around my naked throat And I choked I know Lied to myself and sank the boat And your perfume is like a rope Wrap it around my naked throat And... I choked and I know Lied to myself and sank the boat And your perfume is like a rope Wrap it around my naked throat And I choked I know Lied to myself and sank the boat And your perfume is like a rope Wrap it around my naked throat