I had my fun, 'til my fun turned into humiliation and a suicide scare I try to lead with love, but I hurt everyone that gets close enough to show me that they care I cry alone in my room or out back, with my finger down my throat Expelling shame I can't bear Every day, I say I'm done, 'til I see that setting sun But tonight, I'm gonna fight white knuckle I lost my passion and my looks, my stomach's turning like a brook I told my best friend I wanted to buy a gun I don't know how I wound up here, feels like I lost so many years Spend all my time saying sorry to everyone Sorry ♪ I don't know how I wound up here The smallest things brings me to tears And once they're gone, I am complеtely numb I don't know how I wound up here I resent the insight of life experience All these lessons only bring me harm All these battles only leave me scarred Oh, how I long to go back to the start ♪ Oh, how I long to go back to the start