Where was i when god had shown How to make a happy home Lie in bed and sleep don't come Have some peace then give me some And i know the reason why you hold me down I won't let this fear of loss make me drown In my bed i lie alone Scrape together bone to bone And i can't seem to seem to find my way I can't seem to find the break of day I'll stay just a step away Where was i when god had shown How to make a happy home And i have become my worst enemy I will survive this instability In my bed i lie alone Scrape together bone to bone Again i have become my worst enemy I will survive this instability I need to breathe the breath of life You constantly drain my life Why can't you see the breath in me I constantly need your need My butterfy don't fly away If i could just take this simple breath of life from me You couldn't take it motherfucker eternity If i could take this breath of life and come inside of me You wouldn't take it, i need to breathe As i creep the monkey's back Now she's gone and oh he's back And i know the reason why you hold me down I won't let this fear of loss make me drown I will stay, i'll stay I will stay, i'll stay