I've never felt so alive I've never had to run and hide The things I want I cannot have The things I need are all so bad What'd you say? I coulda been I coulda been I coulda been I am, I am You coulda been You coulda been You coulda been You are, you are My best excuse is that I'm drained From everything that keeps me sane My sickness keeps me in control From everything you'll never know What'd you say? I coulda been I coulda been I coulda been I am, I am You coulda been You coulda been You coulda been You are, you are Does it make you happy? Does it make you mad? Why am I still laughing? Look at what you had Does it make you feel good? Does it make you sick? That you knew that I would Be the one to trip I coulda been I coulda been I coulda been I am, I am You coulda been You coulda been You coulda been You are, you are No control No control No control