I woke up this morning
To find my father
Standing on my doorstep
Guess he was surprised
When I told him I decided
I was skipping Christmas this year
He asked me why
I told him why
I don't wanna tell a lie
A - a - a
I ain't got no no time to play games this year
Made a deadline to myself that I really wanna meet this year
Told him I was gonna wrap it up by the end of this year
I ain't got no time to take off this year
I ain't got the time or the money I can spend
I ain't got enough for myself and it's painful to say
But I'd much rather sit and try to figure out
I just wish I knew what I was about to do next year
I have come way to far
Can't give up my dream
If only I could take it back
I would do the same
What I should be doing with my life next year
Not the guy to plan for the future but I kinda
Wish I knew what I was about to do next year
I don't want your pity, I wanna be ready
When the time comes
I don't want no gift, I just wanna love
I just need to love myself again
Wish it was easy to tell it like it is
I don't wanna let myself down
Father, please forgive me
Father, I've been bothered by it
Father, understand me
I don't wanna live like this no more
I don't wanna let you down at all
I don't wanna let you down at all
Know it's hard to grasp what is really going on
When's the last time you had a project of your own
When's the last time you found yourself in a zone
Zoning out to the sound of a drum like "uh"
When's the last time you had a passion so strong
And a dream so big that it took away your breath
Any time you let it go sorry for the quiz
But I really wanna know
Have you ever felt this way before
Have you ever felt this way
If you haven't than there isn't any point in me trying
To explain what I'm trying to accomplish
Only thing I know is it's me against the world
It's all you need to know
When's the last time anybody doubted you
When's the last time you did something for the first time
When's the last time it was you against the odds
And it's one in a million and the feeling of a stepback
Makes you get that, but you put that
Anger get to use
Refusing to lose it
Excuse what I've done
Cus I know I was your son
Before it started and you loved me for the one that I was
Father, please forgive me
Father, I've been bothered by it
Father, understand me
I don't wanna live like this no more
I don't wanna let you down at all
I don't wanna let you down at all
You given me so much
You provided me a home
But you don't understand
What is really going on
You so sick and tired
Of me working on a tune
Telling you it's all gonna
Add up pretty soon
Leaving you to ask
Are you ever moving on
When you gonna realize
That the energy is gone
Time that you move on
Time to get a job
Why do you believe
That you gonna prove me wrong
I have come way to far
Can't give up my dream
If only I could take it back
I would do the same
I have come way to far
Can't give up my dream
If only I could make it right
What am I to do