Yeah
I'm sorry
I said it before
Alone again
Trynna figure out my head while my heart is sore
Our relationship's a picture of a battlefield
Art of war
I wanna get this off my chest
But it only leads to fightin'
So I start apoligizin' not knowin' what I am sorry for
I just wanna lift your spirits
I just wanna make you happy
But the way that I am lifting's with improper form
In other words
I can snap at any minute
The way our friends, they gossip
We're the topic of discussion
We're entrapped by their opinions
I finally realize that they're passively convincing
You and I and what we need to do next
I can hear the words
Comin' out your throat
Like mucous
Feelings that I harbor
All the feelings that i hold are so confusing
Cause truth is
I miss you but I love my ex
See the issue isn't what is next
The issue isn't wonderin' if I should send this fuckin' text
Tell you that I'm sorry and I want you back
But will that lead to happiness
Or punish us and sufferin'
Love is just a circus
I'm the one who keeps on jugglin'
Act like i am tough as shit
But it is tough to come to grips
That what I want and what I need
Are two completely different things
The reason why we're struggling
Alone again
Trynna make the right decision
What is wrong
What is right
(What is wrong what is right)
Alone again
With these problems that i wish I could resolve overnight
(Resolve overnight)
Alone again
Second guessing everything
Hesitations in mind
(Hesitations in mind)
Alone again
Trynna tell you that I'm sorry but my pride won't let me say it
Maybe that's the reason why I'm
Alone again
Soaking over these decisions that I heinously made
Did I make a mistake
Or did i make the right decision
Cuz I know the right choice
Correlates with some pain
Transforma into rage
I try to keep it bottled up but I
Keep on hearin' people proclaim to be an open book
But is a book still special if it's one that everybody's read
They read the message that you pledge
And then they flip it
Just to fit their fuckin narrative
Tell you it's pretentious and a little bit embarassin'
But they don't wear the skin that I am wearin'
So explain to me
How you gonna dictate who or what inside my life
I should be cherishing
Love and hate
That's a thin line just be aware of it
See awareness is imperative
To make the whole relationship very bliss
No therapist could ever fix the shit between us
You gon' need a engineer to try to start repairin' shit
I'm sorry
Alone again
Trynna make the right decision
What is wrong
What is right
(What is wrong what is right)
Alone again
With these problems I wish I could resolve overnight
(Resolve overnight)
Alone again
Second guessing everything
Hesitations in mind
(Hesitations in mind)
Alone again
Trynna tell you that I'm sorry
But my pride won't let me say it
Maybe that's the reason why I'm
Alone again
They don't miss you when your gone
And I promise that they never really cared about your presence
I heard that bout a week ago
When hearin'it really boasts the question
Tell me was it real was it true was it only for the sex
Did we split for the right reasons or
Did we let emotions interject in
Frankie told me constantly I'm fighting with myself
And I told him you're the reason why my conscience keeps on wagin' war
Wish that you could see my thoughts and maybe even take a tour
So you can see the way their formed
And finally see the reason why
It's hard for me to stay the course with us
Cause today you say I love you
But tomorrow you don't want to
No tomorrow you'll be second guessing everything
Creating all these hurdles that I need to learn to jump through
Which makes me think this isn't really love
This is convenience cause to you I'm just another motherfucker
That you know that you can run to when you're lonely
Alone again
Trynna make the right decision
What is wrong
What is right
(What is wrong what is right)
Alone again
With these problems I wish that I could resolve overnight
(Resolve overnight)
Alone again
Second guessing everything
Hesitations in mind
(Hesitations in mind)
Alone again
Tried to tell you that I'm sorry but my pride won't let me say it
Maybe that's the reason why I'm
Alone again