You ever had a choice to make that breaks more than your own heart
You ever had to own mistakes that left your family torn apart
Ever thought your voice could change the people that you broke and scared
But when you go to make amends they start pretending they don't know the man you are
Every time I right a wrong I only wrong a person more
My choice of drug is sex and that's the reasons why my heart and all my urges get so stuck inside this constant game of tug of war
Reason why I love no more
Feels like every person that puts trust in me leaves beat and scorched
Who's keeping score, my vices got the upper hand
Please tell me what my life is leading towards
Decisions that I'm making of lately they keep chained down
Feels like every road that they lead me down ain't a safe route
I just need to focus and pull my head out these rain clouds
I just need to move on embrace what I cannot change now
Decisions that I'm making of lately they keep chained down
Feels like every road that they lead me down ain't a safe route
I just need to focus and pull my head out these rain clouds
I just need to move on embrace what I cannot change now
Change now
I need to change how I am thinking cause my thoughts are so invasive it's like Russia and Ukraine now
Lately all I'm hearing is this devil on my shoulder tempting me to leave this world, tell Eminem he's not the only one who's space bound
Aiming for the moon and stars, my heads so far inside the clouds I'm using anything with hopes to try to flush the pain out
All I got is choices like what woman should I praise or what career path should I chase
I got this fear and lack of faith, I swear I used to have some drive but now my steering's latched in place
I was taught that hesitation gets you killed and cause I can't make a decision now the reapers asking names
I don't need time, I need some answers, god please answer while I pray
Decisions that I'm making of lately they keep chained down
Feels like every road that they lead me down ain't a safe route
I just need to focus and pull my head out these rain clouds
I just need to move on embrace what I cannot change now
Decisions that I'm making of lately they keep chained down
Feels like every road that they lead me down ain't a safe route
I just need to focus and pull my head out these rain clouds
I just need to move on embrace what I cannot change now