Life is a lie Why the fuck I don't want love even though I feel empty inside Nowhere to hide Nowhere to run in this moment I feel like I might suicide I wanna fly But they be holding me down making me feel like I wanna die I'm in demise Tell me why I don't see God anymore when I look to the skies Gave it my all Still I feel nothing but I came from nothing I just want it all Thought you was special I said that I loved you until I realized wasn't no feelings involved Everything changed Maybe one day we could weather the storm and just kiss in the rain No one to blame You did me wrong and I'm doing you wrong so we one and the same You ain't ever care when you seen me bleeding Left on read you ain't text me either Trynna stay the course like a wide receiver but it falls down when you start to grieving Say you getting tired of the way you treated Where the fuck was you when I really needed You by my side you ain't find a reason now I'm holding my heart like I pledge allegiance Now I'm finna restart like I'm changing seasons When you locked my heart I put the key in can't feel a thing Say you been down I feel the same I feel the shame Ion why I wanna blow my brains Married to the game and the Mary Jane Life so hard but I overcame thoughts in my head take it to the grave and that's true