How many times I dismissed my intuition
For the sake of keeping peace
How many times the words slipped my mouth
Before I had to chance to think before I speak
Must of been numb I couldn't feel that I was falling out of touch
With who I need to be
Where do I begin
Where do I begin, or should I say begin again
Fine tuning everything I'm placing value in
I don't need a lot, just enough until enough ain't enough
My desires been overstepping
Fixing my relationship with acceptance
Remembering that change was never overnight
As if I didn't have time to give it time
Impatient and anxious that's a scary sight
Wishing I could be involved, and not be attached
The inner dialogue tend to set me back
Recognize the thought, but don't follow it
Will I ever master that?
Weight on my shoulder, try to be mindful
Riding this high horse, the legs start to buckle
Then it's the ground that I'm in for
I probably need to feel it though
For real, humble yourself or reality will
Things gon play out how they supposed to
To the core, yea I keep it close to
What should I keep inside, what should I show you
I hope you still see the light in me
Let the ego play it's part
But break the barriers it made
Sweeping up the pieces took forever and day
When short term goals was better off as long term goals
You find the worth in what the long run shows
I see the cons and pros of seeing through shit
The phone died when I was contemplating
Calling it quits. My head high as the road
That I attempted to take, I miscounted some of my blessings
Was all over the place
What you do when it get uncomfortable?
And you overfilled the void that use to comfort you
I been approaching healing wrong, it's more work to do
I could say it never ends, time fixed the wound
The wrong move reopened it
Dirt on my shoes kicking habits that I'm sure to miss
See it setting in, I'm going out on a whim, Im holding up on my end
Almost lost my motive stretching myself too thin
Things gon play out how they supposed to
To the core, yea I keep it close to
What should I keep inside, what should I show you
I hope you still see the light in me