I'm trapped behind these walls
They're closing in
I'm suffocating, hyperventilating
Like it's not air that I've been breathing
How does it feel to be so hopeless
It's worthless
Nothing's gonna change
It's not cold enough to numb the pain
So I'll stick to jack and jäger bombs
Looking for the answers to all my problems
I wish that I could change all the things that I hate
I wish that it would change and stay that way
I hate everything I see in the mirror
Because that's not who I want to be anymore
FUCK
I'm lost, alone
But not afraid because I know
I don't need you any more
I'm strong enough on my own
It's over, I'm sober
Can't do this any longer
It's all the same to me
All of this means nothing
Although my heart is beating
It doesn't mean I'm living
Desperately I'm wandering
Trying to find my so called calling
Because I'm still not content
With everything I am
Based on what I know
There's still nothing to show
After 22 years of doing the things I love
And trying to call myself a man