I remember I was 11 when I first heard Eminem
Me and my homies were laughing like, "What the fuck is he saying?" then
But as time grew up and we all flew by
Some of the words took a place within like my eyes started facing in
And then I picked up the pen and while expressing my heart
I opened up my life to the rhythm of scars
And I started approaching myself, not just in the mirror
Funny, I thought the truth was sharp and shiny and clear
But it wasn't, I used the pen as a cave and I never went home
My homies worried, I never picked up my phone
Always thought I was laughing when I was sad and alone
Blaming everybody when they just tried to get in my zone
Look the past is my memory, I don't fuck with that guy
Keeping the bruises I've given myself so hidden inside
Wait, "pleased to meet ya"
If I had met the past evils of myself then this is how I greet ya
"Look, I'm not you anymore, yeah I kicked you out the door
You can't block me from the youth you tried to ruin before"
Yeah, I hated myself, that's how I dealt with the process
Now I smile at myself and bitch I call that progress
All the voices that told me that there's no beauty in life
Getting softer every night 'cause they just hearing me singing like
All the voices that told me that there's no beauty in life
Getting softer every night 'cause they just catching me singing like
"Ta, ta, ta, ta, ta, ta, ta, ta, ta, ta, ta
Ta, ta, ta, ta, ta, ta, ta"
Bring it back real good, yeah I got this
This is something that you should not miss
Yeah, I fucked up, I hurt my friends and all the ones that I loved
Looking into my past, how do I forgive if I'm judged?
How do I thank all the people who tried to bring me out of this hole?
How do I let 'em know that I felt cold in my home?
It's easy to see things when you're not lost in yourself
Now that I've honestly chosen to throw my pills on the shelf
Yeah these changes are scary, to tell the truth, I'm petrified
This is me at 19, who will I be at 35?
Will my bones peel away? Will I have the world in my palms?
Will I have plaques all around me? Maybe a girl in my arms?
Yeah but I'm trying not to focus on that, I may be lonely but I'm out of that trap
Yeah but I'm trying not to focus on that, the future is dicey, I'd throw some money on that
Some get famous, maybe some don't
I'm just patient with my product, in the basement psychotic
I'm recording in closets yea it's a tight space
So they'll be screaming my name as all the light's fade, my face lights up
Despite the fact that it's dark, I cry while I realize that I done come up so far
Fuck the money and the fame, yeah I'm still learning the game
A few years down the line and you will remember my name
As a kid I always dreamt that I would get there someday
Never thought that I'd believe that maybe today's that day
But as tomorrow shit changes and that someday will change
I'm proud to tell myself that I really made it one way
Couple albums down the line and my heart in one piece, in one place
Couple homies and a snack on my plate
Living like my younger self would really curse at the thought
"Little dipshit, you cute but you just lacking the sauce
But it's chill little homie, you just swimming in sorrow
You playing yourself when you say that mind is so hollow
Life's a painkiller if you're choosing to swallow"
'Cause now I got my mental in order, the mansions will follow
"Ta, ta, ta, ta, ta, ta, ta, ta, ta, ta, ta
Ta, ta, ta, ta, ta, ta, ta"
In the morning
I'm feeling fine but my mind is sinking, falling
Into the seven seas
Take me away
Take me away
I'm breaking away from these chains, I'm begging
Begging on my knees
In the morning
I'm feeling fine but my mind is sinking, falling
Into the seven seas
Take me away
Take me away
I'm breaking away from these chains, I'm begging
Begging on my knees