I've been on my own so long I forgot what it feels like
To belong to something real
I'm stuck in my skin like it's vacuum sealed
Wanna grab the corners of my mouth and peel
Wanna cut myself out this womb and start again
Safe and clean with a new born innocence
Stay in peace, pristine like I've never been
In my painted world, won't let nobody in
I've been thinking about those wasted years again
And all the time I could have spent fixing my head
Maybe by now I would feel warm again
Maybe it wouldn't be winter wherever I am
But I'm colder than I've ever been
And I'm frozen inside of my skin
So much snow that I can't see the end
And what it looks like I can't comprehend
I've been on my own so long I forgot what it feels like
To belong to something real
I'm stuck in my skin like it's vacuum sealed
Wanna grab the corners of my mouth and peel
Wanna cut myself out this womb and start again
Safe and clean with a new born innocence
Stay in peace, pristine like I've never been
In my painted world, won't let nobody in
I paint my world in blood
From those wounds that you picked up
In that room when we were young
How those tiny cuts still throb
And it's pain you can't shake off
Where your memories start to rot
And your brain can't make a thought
Without bringing it up
I've been on my own so long I forgot what it feels like
To belong to something real
I'm stuck in my skin like it's vacuum sealed
Wanna grab the corners of my mouth and peel
Wanna cut myself out this womb and start again
Safe and clean with a new born innocence
Stay in peace, pristine like I've never been
In my painted world, won't let nobody in