I felt the fire and I felt the ice Felt the coldest of shoulders the burn in my eyes I felt the sting and the sorrow it brings I felt defeat felt sick and tired of everything I'm being pulled apart I'm being stretched too thin Got one foot out the door The other one still fucking in I saw life and I saw death Saw a smile on your face when there was nothing left Sometimes I swear I see a glimmer of hope I cry out for an answer and life says no Spent my whole damn life looking towards the sky I keep asking a god if I should life or die