As the wind blows My soul is put to rest Fading shadows Distant memories Searching inside Nothing to find Empty and numb And all was gone Lost to the wind As the fire burns I dig a second grave One for myself One for my love Selfish admission I want to be the first Bullet in the head Splatter yourself Wish you were dead Don't leave me here First one my dear Wish you were here Now into eternal pain These shades of grey never lift I'm only holding on to this Because there's nothing else Keeping with reality My mind won't blank My face if numb Racing thoughts Where will I go When I pull this trigger? And finally I've become A ghost inside your head Where you'll see That I have never felt the joy Of never being dead And this is where I will leave Because I am no longer needed Memories, from distant pasts Will trap you in your head