I remember Spending my life On a bender Since I was a teenager Losing my mind every time that I want to be in the limelight Watch me do things every night Like a drifting flight I'm not ready for what I feel Because my joy turns into pain and Takes a lot to heal I'm not ready to take that risk Now I know it is not worth Spinning the wheel I remember Having fun with my friends and Not worrying about the next day But now everything is different Sometimes I win in this game But most times I lose, I am a lame And now I take the blame I'm not ready for what I feel Because my joy turns into pain and Takes a lot to heal I'm not ready to take that risk Now I know it is not worth Spinning the wheel No more holes in my memory No more pain No more binge drinking No more blame and shame Nevermore Turn the page I'm not ready for what I feel Because my joy turns into pain and Takes a lot to heal I'm not ready to take that risk Now I know it is not worth Spinning the wheel