Today my past Has come alive to eat All of the guts that I use to just keep my feet Moving left and right As my legs shake like trees Oh how I curse the heavens for not taken' me GOD DAMN! This whole mess that's me I DON'T TRUST MYSELF! I'm in way too deep And every night I erase the day With the strongest drinks they'll give to me And I awake Much to my dismay To find that I'm still staring at the same ceiling I just wish once I could get this right And have the angels from the South take me at night GOD DAMN! This whole mess that's me I DON'T TRUST MYSELF! I'm in way too deep And every night I erase the day With the strongest drinks they'll give to me And all I have Is meaningless And all I found Is nothingness In this self loathing sickness And all I have Is meaningless And all I found Is nothingness In this self loathing sickness GOD DAMN! This whole mess that's me I DON'T TRUST MYSELF! I'm in way too deep And every night I erase the day With the strongest drinks they'll give to me And all I have is meaningless And all I found is nothingness