We could forgive, they would like us to Give up on reason to get to you Old pain, never get used it This hate, never get used it These words have us going backwards These thoughts, never get used Over my body, the weight of you Silence in here when I think of you We've got to keep this all from going backwards I tell myself every night Every night Every night What's with this mediocrity? I need to say just what I mean Feel like this is on top of me Feels like this is the only thing On my mind Where is the solace? If I was a him, I would have sold this for double the worth but still hold it And everyone knows this I carry the weight I carry the means Carry it on top of me I carry the joy I carry the pain Hold it all evenly I learned the hard way that pain replays It never leaves easily It only comes easily My silence won't do me any favors No time to go numb No metaphor for when hope's gone Your silence won't do you any favors No time to go numb No metaphor I tell myself Every night