When the days grow longer And when the, sun shines brighter I become vulnerable An emotional summer flips the script My mental stability takes a trip Another slip Fumbling emotional balance amongst equilibrium But I I keep my cap low, head bowed Eyes shut, mind in klutz Allowing for more darkness to creep in Paying me an allowance of loneliness, while I Save every ounce and penny until I can buy Society's summer Where my thoughts settle and the sun Nourishes me as opposed to casting me In the shadows Until then Until then I stare out the window Wondering about what could've been Should've been Would've been If only I wasn't stuck here, facing the fear Fear of love, happiness Success, joy A paradox of what I should fear