Down there, in windows open
Deeper is blue, and in fresh air is longing
For nameless volatilities like the end of a rainbow
Some call it "you"
And even when the scent escapes me, I'm still lost
There with my visions that found me in youth
Founded me in youth
"These will be the worst years of your life,
Better spend them now, than later"
So I waited for those better years
Promise that you won't die before me
So that something I miss is alive
Make me the sun and the stars
I'm the wind and the rain
Take me from knowing that this all could end
In a lifetime, a moment, it could be the next breath
But it's alright
As long as I'm still in the air
Down in the canopy
The circles came to a close around the sun
And as they blew up the sky for the fourteenth time
I realised that in waiting for things to change
All my fears had come true,
As well as all the things I'd sworn
Would never happen again
It was all my fault, but I could not change
I was stuck in being myself down here
Like everyone is
But even there, at the edge of night
I could hear them singing
What we told each other forever before
About the brighter tomorrow
How many of us knew? Only you told me
That down here are we, for every year
The cards draw, the colors set forever
I know I should have waited for you
But it seemed okay back then
I was lost in the perceived magnificence
Of going dead into the night
And coming out dancing to the morning light
You and I we were bathing in faces
With the sun shining from the roof
There were songs to keep fresh in their hearts
If someone wanted respite for a moment
You wouldn't fault them for that would you?
Words like
"Every dream I have is in this room but i am not"
Then everyone cheered
I dropped burning liqour on the rug
And no one saw you leave
From black to blue there in windows open
The stars and the rain thought themselves euphoric
I know I said I was in heaven then
But there's no such thing