Chilling with pain I been chilling with misery She wanna get close I don't think you wanna get close to me I got people who don't notice me Chilling with my demons they the only ones who know me Know me know this I been stuck down in this pit I been trying but I'm pissed I been clawing at this fence I been tryna get a grip but you know that Look at my attempts they so sad but you know that Say this say that say what you want about me They all ask me how I live turn on this song and then you'll see To be honest it's real sad I'm filled with drugs and they won't leave I been feening for a hit Give me a hit of that I told you that I'd quit but I find myself I'm running back I told you that I'm clean but here I am I'm off the pack I said I hate that girl but I love her I blew out her back I guess I hate myself cause I always am running back I guess I hate myself cause I always am running back Run back to it put my faith into it I wanna run away but I'm weak I can't do it They always tell me I can do it Never believe what they say not for a second Imma still try my best pull out a hat trick Imma still light this up just like a matchstick Pull back the trigger light you up just like a matchstick I been living with a frown I know you wanna get real close but I can't keep your face around Head above the water I won't drown I just wanna kill myself put myself down in the ground Blow my brains out Put some drugs in my brain why do I feel dead now Lord end it any day now I just wanna find some peace death must be my way out I walk like that I talk like that ok Put some hate up on my twitter and they got nothing to say Now I make these songs and now it's not ok They already shut me out now it will always stay that way Stay away from me Get out of my life please just stay away from me Stay away from me Get out of my life please just stay away from me