I am staring at the photos on the wall
Just watching them fade, into the background
I know that I am still young
But I just feel like that life should start making sense
I am recently declining all my calls
Just listening to myself go back down
Who knew that living on this world would come at such a great expense?
'Cause I could fall a thousand times before you rescued me
Risk it all, say "fuck my life" and let myself go free
If everybody's lying, what's the hell's the point of trying?
Or what am I suppose to be?
Reality gets realer, it's so dark in here and now I can't see
Whenever I'm with people I feel small
I look at my friends and I feel worthless
'Cause I won't have the grades to get a job so I can actually succeed
And I don't know what love is all about
But I'll figure it out if she is worth it
Why can't I be with someone who's not over me in less then a week?
'Cause I could fall a thousand times and get back up with ease
I convince a crowd and make them swear that I'm happy
But if I am always lying I could always turn to buying drugs
And make me who I wanna be
And as reality gets realer
I just close my eyes so that I can't see
I'll still fall a thousand times before I'm ever seen
But maybe all this shit is dumb
And I should just start worrying about me