A master actor, A perfect liar All smiles played out With expert timing It starts like rust, Slow and silent, But grows like fire, Swift and violent I walk much slower now I've got no direction All bends are blind, All cracks chasms I love and hate in equal measures The freedom from precision That acting like this offers But habits are so easily formed And not so easily forgotten It's nothing that some wine can't sort out Hit the offy, Back a bottle, Drop two sleeping pills and hope to pass out The run as got me spinning around and down and out I hate the person I've become Hate the foil, Hate the filters, Hate the blister packs but I won't stop The run as got me spinning around and down and out Praying that the clarity of morning brings a peace To ease the mourning of A loss of control, As two lives split in half from a whole She'd say "I missed you when you were gone", And I would wish that I was off anywhere else I'm sorry When I said I didn't love you What I meant was I hate myself