When I'm in bliss I'm longing for hell
It's like I'm hoping for misery inside of my head
It's all hanging by a thread
And I don't wanna be saved
I don't wanna be saved
These thoughts of a deathwish
I'm desperate but I'm terrified of feeling selfish
Inside I'm all alone
Love, you embraced me, but still I feel so empty
And I
I feel it in my bones I just loose control
And I
I feel it in my soul I just can't let go
It gets the best of me
When my mind get's stuck in spinning circles
It gets so hard to reach the reality I'm grasping for
I'm a mess
I'm a beautiful mess
Been a fellow friend with my demons for so long
Worn a mask, it doesn't fit at all
I made myself believe that I'm here for something
A stranger to the real world
Let me remain the unknown
Let me remain the unknown
And I
I feel it in my bones I just loose control
And I
I feel it in my soul I just can't let go
It gets the best of me
When my mind get's stuck in spinning circles
It gets so hard to reach the reality I'm grasping for
For so long, hell's been feeling like my home
For so long, I've been speaking for other tongues
For so long, hell's been feeling like my home
For so long, I've been speaking for other tongues
But I dont wanna be saved
And I
I feel it in my bones I just loose control
And I
I feel it in my soul I just can't let go
It gets the best of me
When my mind get's stuck in spinning circles
It gets so hard to reach the reality I'm grasping for