Fuck it, why don't you just let me overdose?
I did it again, and woke up again
Tired of running from all these withdrawals, keep losing my friends
This might be my end
All of these drugs while I'm counting my ends
Fuck it I'm dead
Fuck it I'm dead inside
And now you know why
Now that I'm gone, I'm on the run
Alone in my room I look down at my gun
Picking it up, I don't want to give up but I'm stuck in this rut that I've dug and I'm fucked
The drugs didn't help
I blame myself for the shit I've been dealt
Tell you I'm cool but I'm losing my grip
Tell you I'm good but I'm losing my shit
You didn't want to take him to the hospital
All you really wanted was his capital
Another one lost that we cannot predict
This is a plague and we cannot pretend
Another mistake might cost you your life
When you're sticking the needle and walk towards the light
Letting go of all I've ever known
I wanna feel the wave's control
Tighten its grip around my throat
Crashing over me, I'm holding on
Feel the narcotics might never wake up
All of these bodies just start to pile up
And that's when it hits you and rips you perplexed
Now you are floating, it's on to the next
Now I'm letting go, let the chemicals control
I'm holding on
Always dismissed do you get the gist?
I'm holding on
Letting go of all I've ever known
I wanna feel the wave's control
Tighten its grip around my throat
You never really ever gave a shit
Always dismissed do you get the gist?
Always kneeling down
I'm an addict with a crown
Don't you love the sound when my body hits the ground?
Why don't you just let me drown?
Fuck it, why don't you just let me overdose?
I did it again, and woke up again
Tired of running from all these withdrawals, keep losing my friends
This might be my end
All of these drugs while I'm counting my ends
Fuck it I'm dead
Fuck it I'm dead inside
And now you know why