I close my eyes and think back on the times
When I heard my old man, slamming doors, breaking walls around the house
Too scared to sleep in my room
Knowin' it'll be my turn soon, so I was creeping with my blanket to the couch
Tryna get away from all the yellin' and fightin' comin' from my parents bedroom
Mother crying, glass smashing on the floor
Little me, tears running down my eyes, while I'm hidin' under my blanket
Praying that my Dad don't open up that door
There were times when I would try to help my Mother
Tryna bust into their room, look at my Dad yellin' daddy please stop
I got pushed outside that room
He slammed that door upon my leg and jammed my leg up
All I remember is this man is detox
Rappin' raps back in school, I was tryna be hot
No instrumentals on the phone, the boys had to beatbox
Back when all of my g's really wanted to be cops
Didn't realise my uncle house was the real weed spot
But I don't say it much
Tho I got a lot to say it's never weighin' up
Mkayy playing melodies that got me stayin' up
Promise this ain't a sad story that I'm makin' up
My brother really had to act pretending he was eatin' lunch
But nobody else sees my life
Don't see the wrong they just see what's right
They don't see all of my struggles all my Trials and Tribulations
What I'm facin', they just seein' who I am so let's face it
Early '97 the 24th of the 2nd
Born into a blessing called life, came with some lessons
Stressin' and depression, many fights and aggression
Parents partied every week there was no food up in the kitchen
What you know about them maggots on the kitchen floor
Watered down tomato sauce, because we couldn't get no more
You know you have no food when there's only tins up in the pantry
Didn't even have that, so family visits came in handy,
Many times went to sleep, empty stomach feeling angry
But this was just a lifestyle for a kid raised in Mangere
I know it's sad sadly, but South Auckland raised me
Hot water on my Weet-Bix with some butter really made me
Your normal kid in NZ would dream to play for AB's
But that was pretty hard for me, when all I seen was KC's
Family full of snakes, but they the realist ones I've ever met
Still I raise my glass high, and live my life with no regrets
Born into the hood, it's only right I'm from around the way
Family in the cells had all of us counting down the days
Hard to keep a smile, had to learn to put my frown away
Parents couldn't find a job, still managed to find a way
I'm talkin' bout the times back on christmas eve
Peekin' for the presents there was nothing but a christmas tree
Parents sat us down and talked to me and my brothers
Boys this years a bit hard, but we still got each other
That always stuck with me
So if you running this race with me then run with me
I ain't tryna hear about things that you done for me
I'm talking bout the real ones that always trust in me
Quick to speak my mind, yeah that's just that head rush in me
If you ain't tryna hear these words atleast hear my heart
Was really blood, sweat and tears from the very start
I wouldn't change a thing because it made us who we are
I'm just here to take over now
I'm sick of always taking part