What am I running from?
What am I so scared of?
Why get up and try again
When you got up stopped and said you've never been
So careful
And I've been haunted by shadow men
Crept past the corner of my eye
I said be careful because I said so
I've got the feeling that you're all safe
But this is gonna be a long year
Fail more times than I ever succeed
I blame it on stress or perhaps grief
Or the fact I do not eat
When they all know my shame
I'll stab and push down all the way
I'll take it all with a straight face
I should walk home but that's not the case
Wake up you're dreaming
I can't and it's freezing
A home left to the sons of sorrow
H-A-P-P-Y! Let's celebrate
For the recent loss of body weight now
H-A-P-P-Y! Let's celebrate
For the reasons why you ran away now
I'm stoking the fire, I can't keep from losing control
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I read William S. all night
To feel that I'm not so bad
I'm the silent type
An alcoholic academic
Part time socialite
Talk's cheap and we all slaughter it
I digress, I feel ill
I read William S. all night
To feel that I'm not so bad
I'm the silent type
An alcoholic academic
I've been spracked, I've been spun
I've been bombed out just for fun
I'm hungry like the wolf and I am as rabid as one
It's not fair, the worst kind of hobby
But have you ever laughed to death?
You know you wouldn't be here if it were true
And have you ever scored some meth
And lit up the lightbulb like the whole idea
Was a good one if great one if nothing at all
I took shots out of needles and came back for more
And if they should ask me why I needed more
I guess I'll say that I am a diabetic
This is so damn pathetic