Long days and nights with no sleep
Facing my problems but scared to go deep
I done lived so many lies don't even know what truth is
And failed so many times I guess my heart is ruthless
The proof is in the pudding or so they say
It's like I wanna do good but got a 5 second delay
Ok I know what I believe in is true
But that ain't meaning everything that I'm believing I do
I mean I know what the word say my application is flawed
I pray hard that my heart will get thawed
I know God has a plan for my life
But I can't even seem to be a decent man for my wife
Wanna live like the people I see do but sin is a reality
Blame it on my stubborn personality
Change gonna come I was told by Sam Cooke
The outlook admittedly has gotten the boy shook
Guess who's back with a new lease
A few beats and a hunger to deliver some heat
I had some demons to face but now I'm back and on track
And ready to deliver every sliver of cold fact
I mean the heart is deceitful
Was always talking a good game and reaching the people
A message was delivered with each rhyme
But I was tearing down my witness every minute of screen time
It seems fine on the surface
You ever meet somebody living life but not with a purpose
You tell them the stories you were to told about Gods grace
Meanwhile you're sliding like you're walking on ice skates
It feels fake but homie don't be deceived
The devil tells us lots of lies but what you gonna believe
Believe that God will use you despite your flaws
He'll keep lifting you and cleaning you and answering calls
I often wonder if I deserve to be on this platform
But then I get reminded why I'm drilling this rap for Him
Nobody wants to talk about the things that cause hurt
But I'll work to build His Kingdom up till my paws hurt
The game has lost a lot of honesty
That's cause we treat this like a game I guess and not like an artistry
It's time for us time for to really choose what team we gonna play for
And check to see what others are mistaken our faith for
Is it possible we're fighting the wrong fight
Amongst each other so we see who sounds more right
But meanwhile the world around us going to hell
And taking us along with it and we can't even tell
I say we cause know I'm also talking to me
I know somebody needs to hear this so that they can be free
God loves us He knows our consequence is the hurt
But He accepts us even though we never cleaned up our sin first