I got a
Redbull and some Krispy Kreme
My apartment gave em out for free
But despite the sugar and caffeine
I'm floating away
A red balloon strapped to my arm
Drag me into a secret place
Where I can't feel my limbs
My head's all over the place
Why can't I
Find some clarity
Why can't I
Do things that's best for me
I contemplate
The worst sides of me
No matter what I do
I can't be free
I got a
Tattoo from an apprentice
I don't know if I even want this shit
But I'm not paying for a cover-up
So fuck it I guess
I barely feel happiness
In fact, I barely feel anything
This crushing numbness
Can only be cured for a minute by writing this song
Maybe it's burnout
Maybe it's finals week
Maybe it cuz I haven't had therapy in over four weeks
And it's hard to see the end
Cuz major depressive disorder's become my best friend
So I can't find that clarity
And I don't do what's best for me
I contemplate the worst sides of me
No matter what I do
I can't be free
No matter what I do