What a fucking waste of time
That show was just awful
I could feel that shit corrode my mind
But I'm not at fault, no
Listen when I sit down I expect to be fuckin' entertained
But ya fucked up now
And I can't use your damn show as a means of escape
No, I'm not tryna talk about my shit
Listen, man. I just wanna be honest
Your program made me feel really bad
And I don't watch programs for that
And I'm not gonna admit
That its my shit that I'm tryna run away from, no
I'm just tryna say that I'm upset that I didn't forget all my problems
Oh isn't that the whole fucking point?
That I can just watch and abandon the noise
Abandon the inner sanctums of my mind
Where I hide all my worries and regrets of life, fuck
Man, no. I'm losing my shit, like
I'm 'boutta lose sleep over this
I'm finding myself getting fucking depressed
And now I'm upset, I'm stressed, I'm a mess
So how am I gonna look you in the eyes
When I feel like I've made a waste of my life
And while I'm upset I'm not that surprised
Cause I sat and watched all the chances slip by
Honestly it hurts to admit
And owning up breaks my heart
What if I find out that I was just scared of failing
So much that I didn't start
(She looked about for a way of escape)
But I could just distract myself
I could simply choose to ignore the things that cause me pain
Can I just distract myself
Blind myself from problems
Cross my fingers that they'll go away
I could just