So time goes quickly
And we love repeating
A moment to share
All that we never share
So fool me and fill me up
With cheer and grace
I'm ready for
Anything else but
This mass hysteria
This negative place
I'm ready to replace
The noise this year
Fool me and fill me up
With cheer and grace
I'm ready for
Anything else but
This mass hysteria
This negative place
I'm ready to replace
The noise this year
It's suicidal
Running in the snow blindness
I gotta catch up
Make sure that I'm there for christmas
If I don't make it
I know that I will not be missed
Burnt out for someone
I know who doesn't give a shit
I try my best to be someone
Who can't fake a smile
But what's the point
When you haven't got the energy to try
They say that family comes first
But I know that's just a lie
Just another shitty christmas
To fight off my denial
It's this emptiness you feel
When you've finally reached your home
Yeah like no one recognizes you
Yeah what have you become
I know it's been a few years
But tell me what have I done wrong
They're the ones who separated a family
They want me gone
So watch the frost build up on my fingertips
Now that I'm looking in from the outside
Try to reconnect with a family
That doesn't understand why I'm trapped at the bedside
Chronic fatigue tries to talk to me
And explains the reasons why I'm always denied
Cus you're never there and you never will be
That's the answer why they won't accept me
I am healing from the years
Of my constant beating fears
I keep searching disappear
Man there's nothing for me here
I'm just clearing through my mirrors
I be hurting through the cheers
I be failing to appear
Man I'm frozen with the air
I keep thinking was it fair
Was it promised or a plan?
Everybody wants a stan
But could never hold a fan
I see blinking when I stare
There's a problem with me man
I see death upon demand
Even when I have a band
I know
I just found my
Fucking sorrow
Of tomorrow
And so here's to
Another year
Full of fake tears
Crystal white fears
It's suicidal
Running in the snow blindness
I gotta catch up
Make sure that I'm there for christmas
If I don't make it
I know that I will not be missed
Burnt out for someone
I know who doesn't give a shit
I try my best to be someone
Who can't fake a smile
But what's the point
When you haven't got the energy to try
They say that family comes first
But I know that's just a lie
Just another shitty christmas
To fight off my denial
It's suicidal
Running in the snow blindness
I gotta catch up
Make sure that I'm there for christmas
If I don't make it
I know that I will not be missed
Burnt out for someone
I know who doesn't give a shit
I try my best to be someone
Who can't fake a smile
But what's the point
When you haven't got the energy to try
They say that family comes first
But I know that's just a lie
Just another shitty christmas
To fight off my denial