L wanted to be sure Of horizons in my window, big and clear And the sun still making singing in my ear But l forgot the wall is always there And now l sit in idle blankness And a stillness l can't take So l began to think in figures Lnstead of beauty that we've made And beauty's gone A liar spit in my ear And it turned me into nothingness, worms and fear The lie became my body, every pore As puddles form beneath me, acid sore And where is joy among these pieces That we scream into the space? Where is my gentle reason And the light within my cave? Where have you been? L want to know the quiet Of it's voice before the screams Just sitting in the silence And waiting, waiting Where is my light? Not blue but green and quiet in my mind?