I, I just want to feel whole But the sad truth is I don't even know what whole is anymore Now I feel like I have nothing left But I know that I'm worth so much more than this I've spent a lifetime listening to people questioning the choices I make, the path I take Suffocating my will to live but I won't break I don't want to lose control I've struggled my entire life to let it all just go And I'm not perfect but I am not worthless I'm just trying to piece myself back together again, back together again Find the pieces Connect the loss Erase the people Or prove them wrong (I'll prove you wrong, I'll prove you all wrong) I don't want to lose control I've struggled my entire life to let it all just go And I'm not perfect but I am not worthless I'm just trying to piece myself back together again, back together again This heart burns for comfort This heart burns for purpose My steady hands begin to shake My nerves react unpleasant ways I toss and turn, I'm twitching Addiction is sinking There's no more pain as I blackout Consuming substance to free myself Rescue me, save me from myself, from myself Time only heals so much