I've been close to living Since I last loved you Now I wander around aimlessly Kill to make me happy How could I make you? When the road home seems so much faster Now you're gone I'm stuck in thoughts Take them away from me please Leave me all suspense Insisting on impossible charades "See you sometime next week," she said But I can never wait Impatiently trying to recover From my mistakes Trying to calm my restlessness And destroying love in turn Surrendering and close to nothing And I am home when I am far away from this Fuck you fucking me And I am home when I am far away from this Fuck you fucking me