I'm a lonely soldier delusioning I say I don't feel while she grabs and holds me still, in awe Words they form and falter The fears they clear and reappear With fingers crossed, I await for this dream to happen and be over Hmm, the way I am The way I feel The way I think Is this the beginning of need? I don't know Like the way I'm supposed to believe That everyone is happier alone There is always someone missing in our perfect life So I know what it means to be numb So I know what it means to be hollow So I know, if you're understood and you're a coward for not letting things flow As it will It's always a little better when you know that you matter And somehow I'm counting on an opening It's always a little harder when rain falls on reasons And I fear the shame and horror of never knowing So I know what it means to be numb So I know what it means to be hollow So I know, if you're understood and you're a coward for not letting things flow As it will As it will As it will As it will As it will I can't tell what's behind that look that she have As I long for harmony, fingers still crossed Hmm, the way I am The way I feel The way I think I don't know how to breathe