Talking to my dad and I see a lowkey alcoholic
Talking to my mom and I know she feel the hardships
Always going through some shit don't even wanna be involved in
But the pain made me stronger
I just keep on evolving
And I'm praying to god, like why I gotta feel this pain?
Why can't I be happy and just stay up in my lane n
Why the fuck my city hate me and the closest change
Why the fuck this rap shit ain't take off at the stage?
I feel like I should've been famous
I should've been made it
I should've been rich, shit I should've had paper
I should've had it all now n I been mad chasing
Working all the time, every dime to this rap thing and
I don't like being at my house
But at the same time, I don't like going out
So imagine how I feel, always isolate myself
And fuck all of that pitty, I don't really need no help and I been saying
Came up, I did this shit on my own
By my lone n now people calling my phone
Cause I'm winning now on the low, I know
And that really be the fakest shit
One thing life taught me is time changes shit
Circle got smaller and my money got longer
People always wanna talk all down on my name and shit
Get some money, that's my new moddo in life
Put every second in music cause I ain't living it twice
And working a 9-5 job for me just won't suffice
I ain't selling my soul but the devil naming his price, on god
All these demons steady watching me
Tryna take my blessings but I never let it bother me
Only thing that bother me is money and my privacy
Bossed up, so you know where my focus at constantly
I'm at a point in my life where nobody stopping me
I need my green and blue cash on Monopoly
Ex friends on my page and they steady stalking me
But issa x for a reason, so they can't talk to me
I do this shit for my Grandpa, like rest in peace
I know he watching my success like he was next to me
Yea a lot of people was family but now they dead to me
Now a lot of people I once loved, they enemy's
I ask myself like 'what the fuck has gotten into me
Ex girl almost took her life and that's the shit I see
Still to this day, yea it haunt me deep in my memories
Hate to think I put somebody else's life in jeopardy
I don't got a lot of love left to give
I don't think I got a lot of time left to give
It's a lot of things in my life, if you remember me for nothing else
Thank just remember me for this
Talking to my dad and I see a lowkey alcoholic
Talking to my mom and I know she feel the hardships
Always going through some shit don't even wanna be involved in
But the pain made me stronger
I just keep on evolving