A woman my age, sittin' here cryin' I oughta be stronger than I am Oughta take comfort in wisdom or something like that But it isn't that way, 'cause sooner or later I'm still that nervous ninth grader Watching you pull us together, I never knew how And since you've been gone I'm just fallin' apart There's a hole in my life, in my soul, in my heart And I stare out this window till light becomes dark And there's nothing that's touching me now But not to complain, we're just bereft, not deserted Lord knows you're rest was deserved It's just your absence is present in all that I do In the sun in the field, in the poem I keep saying In the hymn that some church bells were playing You have always been part of them but I never knew How could I ever begin to say? Surely you already knew What is this world with you gone away? How can this finally be true?