Praying for myself These thoughts I try to hide I have faith in me and hope this will survive But it's tearing me apart I can't hear the words by which I guide So I must ask again, who will carry me I can not deny that nothing can defend From the helplesness that's cutting deep inside And I can't prevent the thought that nothing's real Seems I've waited years for this day to end The strength I need to feel, the pride inside of me Are not there behind the face staring back at me The anger and the pain of knowing where I am I have come so far and I cannot return Nothing I can do that I have not done No words I can say. No truth left that I can see So must I let this end, and everything falls apart Before I live my life as I have always done Tell me what to do so I do nothing wrong Something I can hope for. Something real that I can see So nothing falls apart. So this does not end I cannot return. I can't start again Nothing to deny, nothing to defend From the helplessness, it's cutting me so deep inside And I can't prevent the thought that's nothing's real It seems I'm waiting years for this day to end Praying for myself These thoughts I try to hide I have faith in me and hope this will survive But it's tearing me apart I can't hear the words by which I guide So I must ask again, who will carry me Nothing I can do that I have not done No words I can say. No truth left that I can see So must I let this end, and everything falls apart Before I live my life as I have always done Tell me what to do so I do nothing wrong Something I can hope for. Something real that I can see So nothing falls apart. So this does not end I cannot return. I can't start again Nothing I can do that I have not done No words I can say. No truth left that I can see So must I let this end, and everything falls apart Before I live my life as I have always done Tell me what to do so I do nothing wrong Something I can hope for. Something real that I can see So nothing falls apart. So this does not end I cannot return. I can't start again