Dad, I know you were sad when you died And I was young, it's the way I kept you in my mind The mess that was left and my mother cried And when she stood up, she was nobody's mother, I'd be fine But I missed you then and I miss you now Like you'd miss things I might say You seemed lost in clouds but I'm older now I can see through lifting haze That you were away even when you were here ♪ Sometimes, a phrase or a manner that's you Comes through me, it goes in a flash It's a frame, it's a blink, like life Oh, and how much now should we pay for the past? 'Cause you could age with grace if I freed you in my mind But I loved you then and I love you now All the things I wish I'd asked When I'm lost in clouds I remember how I was robbed and I was blessed And you were away even when you were here 'Cause it's not about you, not you, anymore It's about what I do with it all And I, I'll never let you let me down ♪ This morning, I wake to be older than you were Fresh white snow for miles, every footstep will be mine You'd have lost that weight, you'd have gone so straight You'd have made my wedding day You'd have saved my youth from that bullet of truth You'd have kept those wolves at bay But you were away You were away even when you were here