Honestly, I never try to look backwards
But the memories have a way of turnin' 'round and
Saying "hi" to me
Now I'm thinkin' 'bout the summer of 2016
When everything we needed was for you to get clean
I should have said somethin' better than
"You're hurtin' me"
Hope you're free now, it would look so proud
'Cause everything we wanted stays trapped in my mind
I scream out, but I would leave now
The same way that I left you in 2018
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I don't wanna think about
How much our history really means
First time with a girl out loud
We made-out on your dirty sheets
But it wasn't me you hurt the most now
It was Olive that you were really scared
So, I never got the chance to grieve how
You were gone when I began to care (uh-uh)
Hope you're free now, it would look so proud
'Cause everything we wanted stays trapped in my mind
I scream out, but I would leave now
The same way that I left you in 2018
I don't wanna sort this out
You don't wanna see this side of me
And these thoughts screamin' out so loud
You're sayin' things I can't believe
'Cause I don't wanna be the one you lean on
I don't wanna be the one you lean on
I don't wanna be the one you lean on
I don't wanna be the one
And I still think 'bout the spiders on the ceilin'
And the methadone needles on the bed when you were feelin' it
'Cause I have still rained on boxes in my attic
That I dragged in from the street 'cause they found out you're an addict
So get free now, on your own somehow
'Cause everything got honest when you looked in my eyes
I scream out, but I would leave now
The same way that I left you in 2018 (ah-ah)
And you're free now, it would look so proud
'Cause everything we wanted stays trapped in my mind
Just scream out, but I would leave now
The same way that I left you in 2018