Gripping tightly to the things I should've let go
All my life it's like I'm living in a black hole
I'm so sick of being scared, falling backwards
I'm so tired, I'm so tired
Holding back, thinking that I don't deserve love
I've given in to voices saying that I'm not enough
I'm so sick of hating me, I wanna wake up
I'm so tired, I'm so tired
So here I am tonight
This is my cry out
I swear that I'm trying now
This is my sorry
I swear that I'm learning how
To deal with my demons
I'm trying to leave them in my past
And I'm hopeful that
This time they're not coming back
Needing help is something hard for me to confess
Putting words to how I feel is such a big mess
But I am learning there is hope inside a good friend
Maybe a therapist, maybe a godsend
Here I am tonight
This is my cry out
I swear that I'm trying now
This is my sorry
I swear that I'm learning how
To deal with my demons
I'm trying to leave them in my past
And I'm hopeful that
This time they're not coming back
Everything I've ever known
Is starting to break off of my wearing bones
I am here, I am here, I am here
But progress isn't linear
Please give me grace, it's not an easy road
I am here, I am here, I am here
This is my cry out
I swear that I'm trying now
This is my sorry
I swear that I'm learning how
This is my cry out
I swear that I'm trying now
This is my sorry
I swear that I'm learning how
To deal with my demons
I'm trying to leave them in my past
And I'm hopeful that
This time they're not coming back
This time they're not coming back