I spilled some water over my medicine And watched them dissolve as they fell in Melting within my veins Through all the crying held by my loneliness It's been a year I've tried to stop to cut myself But when the day shines off, my thighs glow in red Trying to stop the blood to shed And the walls crave marks of my pityful head I couldn't stop myself from trying to feel something It's an endless cycle of shame and pain Desperate to feel the humanity in vain Holding up to what would never comе true I feel so scared of going through The lifе and death funeral of my voice That trembles in the silent of the void That grows inside of me Bigger than everything that I could be When everything fades away I'll stare at the emptiness that I've created And see how beautiful is the nothingness fading out all the pain And could keep out of the floor what isn't alive anymore I was born from the sun and the hatred that burnt my flesh And fulfilled the void that I gaze, leaving my skin with only regrets That made me realize I am the battle that rushes inside of me I'm the blood and I'm the death, and how I wish that I was dead How I wish I was torn apart from every fear that built me