I saw the light of what you were to me Burning like a beacon just out of reach The terror spilled out from a secret place Pushing everyone I love so far away I think that I have a secret I can't tell Falling backwards, safety broken I wish you well I know that deep inside there's just disease A wound inside a rotting memory But amidst the wreckage and the sparks and blood I can still find faces and names that I love For all my cold lugubriosity I just want you to be happy with and without me I cannot feel my place in this anymore