It's getting hard to tell myself That I am not just someone else The person that I used to be Is getting hard to reconcile with me I know I've come so far And stayed alive for so long But the vestigial parts of my mind Still visit me from time to time (You can't escape) (You can't do anything about it) Never far from this The tightness in my stomach and my chest I hold myself together day-to-day And hope for something that will Guarantee my next breath And the one after and maybe leave me Stronger than this broken creature Scrawling out impenetrable sentences That hide the truth of everything That I have been through Parasitic thoughts reduce my agency to nothing Not this again I just got over the last time Never far from this The tightness in my stomach and my chest This is all I have left The tightness in my stomach and my chest