That's what I told myself It just happened And after it was over I looked down at the mess on the floor It was like a kaleidoscope had shattered The door flies open it hits my face Young and broken beggin for grace See demons in your eyes filled with rage These nights I felt nothing but goddamn hate This can't be you this can't be me Blurry vision possessed by a beast Now everything pretty got nothing on me So lifeless wish I could cut my own sleeves I had screamed my heart out for you So hard that my veins should've blown up Screamed against transparent walls oh Should've known that you're unable to touch Pain so deep inside me Love how it excites me Callin me a freak But you are in too deep For you it's just a bit I'm burstin on you bitch But you don't give a shit I'm so close to the cliff You killed my natural emotions You made me feel like dirt Down on my knees when you touched me It felt like a kaleidoscope had shattered It was like a kaleidoscope had shattered Booze breath red eyes cold nights Bleed me out I'm still alive only on the outside God must hate me he rolled the dice Beat me up no one taught me wrong from right Booze breath red eyes cold nights Bleed me out I'm still alive only on the outside God must hate me he rolled the dice Beat me up no one taught me wrong from right